My mind is darker than the night of a full moon.
My heart is colder than Antarctica.
I'm an outcast in this society;
but there's nothing better than being yourself.
Pretending.. It’s similar to faking. We talk about things being fake all the time. About people being fake. I’m with you everyday.. and I’m constantly trying to find ways to not feel fake. Because every time I’m with you.. I have to try to pretend I don’t feel like I do. Pretend I don’t like you so much more. And I try even when I’m not with you to push those feelings down. To pretend I don’t feel this way. To try and pretend things are different. I try to fake feelings for someone else. But really, you’re all that is on my mind. I compare everyone to you. I thought you felt the same way, but I’m not enough. Definitely not good enough for you. But I see the girls you want, and that almost makes me glad I’m not enough. I’m sorry that I won’t lie to you or hurt you the way they do. Maybe some day you’ll realize this but right now it hurts me..
child I am babysitting: How do you get grownup teeth?
me: You lose your baby teeth
child I am babysitting: they fall out!?
me: they fall out
child I am babysitting: do you still have your baby eyes?
child I am babysitting: or did they fall out
me: you keep the same eyes all your life
child I am babysitting: *touches eyes* whoa
And even if I were to go on my knees with pointed rocks and broken glass piercing me, it would be less painful than the words that come out of your mouth.